Fail.

Hello my virtual friends! How are we all doing? Good? Good, now back to me.
Ya'no in The IT Crowd when Jen wants to become the entertainments manager and everyone says "It's not for you Jen" at her? Well, I kind of wish someone had done that for me.
Actually I don't, if people had said that I wouldn't have tried and then I wouldn't know for sure that it wasn't right. Anyway basically, by mutual agreement, I no longer have a job. The manager realised I completely lack the confidence to do the job, asked me outright and I, being far to honest, told him the truth. I'm not going to say this is a good thing, because obviously it isn't, but it does mean that I can cross telesaleswoman off my career goal list, and I can say that at least I tried. I do believe that if you fail, that's fine so long as you tried. If you fail and didn't try, you have no right to be upset. If I had just turned the job down when I had reservations about doing it, A) I would have regretted it, and B) I would never have discovered for sure, what I thought I already knew. (yeah, I totally got Joseph and the Amazing Technicolour Dreamcoat in my head then too. "I close my eyes, draw back the curtain, to see for certain, what I thought I knew.")
Basically I'm back to square one, but with slightly more life experience and self awareness than a week ago.
Just thought I'd fill you in, till next time then...
xx